Thoughts

The problem here is my lack of self-confidence, i think. One day I'm completely motivated, and the next day I'm asking myself what the hell i think I'm doing?! This is not going to be easy if I cant get over the mental hurdle of self doubt. Here's what I'm going to do: I'm going to, right now, put my application in black and white. Thats right, i'm going to type out all the components of my application thus far to see "what it looks like..."

I"m not sure what this will do for my ego, but at least I'll be able to get a picture perfect idea of where I stand so far.

GPA: 2._ _ _
MCAT: Have not taken it yet - no practice tests yet either
VOLUNTEERING: Biology Tutor/Mentor Program (how ironic) 2003-2006
SHADOWING:2003-2005 Mercy Hospital in the Internal Medicine Dept
RESEARCH: Current, Dept of Neurology , Stroke Division Research
WORK EXPERIENCE: Everything from the publishing industry to pharmacology clinical data
LORs: I can get good ones. :)
OTHER GOODIES: I already have a BA in English. That is a plus. I think. Does my 3.6 gpa matter?

I know, I know, without the grades, I'm pretty useless... so I guess thats all I have to really focus on now. Grades, grades, grades. When the time comes, I also need to find out what I should "leave out" of my resume and personal statement. Is there such thing an an info overload? Also, I'll need to see what a sample med school applicant resume looks like- but this too, when the time comes.

Yes, I have C's, D's, and F's on my transcript. The good part is that I'm going to have to retake them anyways since I'm going to get my BS Bio. What I really want to know is, what AdComs will say when they see that I've taken Physics three times, or tried genetics once, but after failing it the first time, dropping it the second?

I think I'm coming closer and closer to accepting the fact that American Med schools are out of the question. If only.....