I was on edge..

...but thankfully bounced back. I was seriously considering aborting mission. I've just been so overwhelmed lately. Sometimes reality smacks me over the head and I cant help asking myself if I'm making the right decisions. So then I sulk a little bit, throw a pity party, and remember that just because classes are hard and some professors are horrible, doesnt mean I should give up.

*physics class*

Students: wait wait go back to the last slide
Professor: why?...
Students: uh so we can copy it down....
Professor:what is there to copy? Just write the main points and fill in the blanks when you get home!

Fill in the blanks?? I'm sorry did I hear him correctly? Fill. In. The. Blanks? Blanks?? Please correct me if I'm mistaken but i thought the BLANKS were the part where he is supposed to actually TEACH.

See? This is what I have to deal with. *shakes head*

On a good note, I had success finding another doctor to shadow. I havent been making it to the neurologist lately because the times he wants me to come, has been conflicting with the time that I"m supposed to be at the lab. Next week I"ll be able to make it to shadow because I'll be going to the lab on Tuesday, not Monday.
Anyways, back to the new shadowing. I sent a nice email to this doc explaining my intentions and here is what he wrote me back:

I would be happy to accommodate you. Let’s try and meet so that we can discuss in detail what you have in mind. I am available on Tuesdays for the next two weeks. Please be in contact with my administrative assistant, (insert name), to set up a time,

Respecfully,
Dr. (insert another name...).

Booyah. I'll be my own dern pre-med society. Everything that I've worked toward, I've gotten. Myself. It's hard being a one man show though, I cant expect to do all of this alone, I know.
But lets see if I can get what I"m ultimately working toward.

Moving right along...

What luck I have!! My cell bio exam has been postponed until next week. I could really use the few extra days to prepare... I spent so much time studying for my neurosci exam (which I will get to in just a moment), that I neglected many of my other subjects.

I'm finally on the ball again with organic chem. We are diving right into reactions of benzene and aromaticity. Not too bad... Ha, but I say that now. I dont know what the hell it is with that class that makes it so hard for me to pass. It's beyond me. Anyways, I've started working on practice problems and have been meeting up with a classmate to practice. Doing what I can.... I tried to get in touch with my tutor today, but yet again, she's on the fritz.

My neuroscience exam was a bit scary... I had a feeling it would be though. There was just an insane amount of information this time... and I'll have to admit, there was some funny business going on during the exam. Our 100 year old professor apparently has declining vision and hearing - poor guy. But there were definitely people that took advantage of that...if you know what I mean... It seemed like there were several covert operations in the works. I noticed one. A girl a few seats from me asked her (apparently brilliant) friend behind her to take 2 scantron sheets as they were passed around. The plan was that she would fill out the scantron and pass it back to the other girl who would fill in her name and claim it as her own paper. Wow. Just - wow.
That was quite a distraction for me because I couldnt help but notice the four or five times she tried to get the scantron back to that girl. Must plan it at the right moment, when the professor is turned, when someone walks up to him and asks him a question, when he blinks, for godsakes anything. Oddly enough they carried out the handoff when he was directly infront of her. It seemed like he was watching them do it.

Well I'm not perfect either. I'll admit, I have been guilty of some unconventional practices in my time....but what happened today completely takes the cake. I'm not talking about glancing over once or twice at someones paper, I'm talking about flat out getting a pre-filled in scantron!! Nutty.

On a better note, I'm actually considering taking calculus at a different local college. It might give me a better chance of doing well in the class, least of all passing it... It's worth a try. I've heard from many people that the math department at my school is way below par anyhow. On top of that, unfairly hard.

Will I finally make it to the D.O tomorrow? I have so much to do!!
I'll sleep on it and decide in the morning....

Sundays..

This morning I woke up to my phone vibrating in my face. It was a text from my mom telling me that she had to take dad to the hospital early this morning. Why? He'd just returned from Equador with his friends and they thnk he might have contracted a bug. Before my mom stuffed him into the car, she told me she tried to give him fluids but they'd wind up pouring out of all orifaces. Thanks for that visual mom.
So at the hospital, dad was treated to several IV bags, antibiotics, and for good measure, ab and chest imaging which both came out negative.

With some antibiotics and rest, he'll be back to his old grumpy, demeaning self in no time. Yay!! .......*blink*

The rest of my "peaceful and relaxing" Sunday has consisted of physics, neuroscience, and a good mop around the house. My roomates dog, who has been staying with us for the last few days, absolutely stinks. I had to take matters into my own hands and clean up a bit while he was getting his walk. Oh how I love the fresh scent of gardenia Mistolin.

Sad news, btw: my fish, Om Nom Snackpack Zimmerman, died today. Oh he was quit an inspiration... One of the few living things on the planet that never gave me attitude. Good bye Om Nom.

Roomate: hey Tori? *from downstairs*
Me: *snaps out of my daydream* ...yes??
Roomate: ....Your fish is dead.
Me: (shit!) SHIT! Aw man really?? Dammit om nom...!

Sure enough, there lay om nom, on his back in the now toxic, murky yellow water...
Me: *taking him to the bathroom* totally ditched me, my man...no fair. Nice knowing ya. Bye.
((flush))

Roomate: let the tank soak with a little bleach, soap, and water.
Me: ....k

Now back to figuring out the magnetic force and torque on a current loop. Then I'll dive back into the world of the spinal cord. Test this Wednesday!!!