That seemed to have been the quote of the day from my ever supporting parents. I wont really get into WHY they said that because I'd prob have to start a whole new blog to explain it. Lets just say this:
I got into a car accident the other day - parents aren't happy. Okay, I fucked up. But honestly, thats life - fucking up, and learning from it. In my opinion, you're only wrong if you don't learn from your mistakes.
Tonight I feel so incredibly drained....after such a long, drama-filled day, I haven't the energy to study even though I know I should. I'm on edge like crazy. I've bitten my fingernails to the bone and they are all throbbing because of how much i've gnawed on the same raw, bloody spots. I've taken my Lexapro, my Wellbutrin, and I'm going to pop my Atenolol before I go to sleep.
Mind = 2, heart = 1, emotional bubble = 0. My head cant be in 4 different places though, I need to chill. I want to watch a movie. I want to sit in bed with dessert for once, and watch a fucking movie.
My dad reiterated this afternoon during his ranting and raving that I'm "lying to myself" by telling my bf that I want to go to medical school. See the problem here? Dad still doesnt think I"m capable of getting into medical school ....so because i tell my bf my goals, I'm now a "liar." I would LOVE to know how to deal with this shit. I would LOVE to have someone who is close to me tell me that they believe in what I'm capable of, rather than put money on when and how I'm going to FAIL.
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