Just a few changes.

So I've decided to make some changes to this blog. I'm going to take out one major thing: complaining. Thats right folks, there will be much less complaining, much less negativity, and much less bitching. I know not every day is going to be a bowl of cherries, but the least I can do is try to not dwell on things that are going to bring me down. I need to stay mentally focused and positive.

On that note, this afternoon, I'm taking the day off from shadowing because of the huge amount of work I have in store for me. Four tests, no time to play.

Oh, for the third time, I visited my professors office for some physics help. I wasnt surprised that he didnt show up, but the good news is that I was able to get help from another professor who shared his office and also taught physics. See? Things worked out well. :)

I received a text message finally from my tutor. Okay so I'll admit, we became friends during the process and I guess things can get wierd when you are friends with your tutor. The formality kind of dissipates but you still have to respect that teacher/student relationship. It's like hanging out with your professor at a club after class on a friday night. Things can get tangled. In my case, I think it did, which is why I havent heard from her in weeks.
I'd even texted her several times....

First time: Hrm.. I guess she's still sick and doesnt want to be bothered....I'll try again later..

Second time: Maybe she is having issues with her phone, or maybe she is back at work and is too tired to talk or text when she gets home. Eh, I dont blame her...

Third time: What if something happened?? .... She hasnt been well, she has no car, iffy financial situation.... gah!!

*I see our mutual friend on campus the next day and find out that she is in fact alive and well....*

Fouth time: Okay, this is bullshit. I'm guessing I must have done something wrong for her to not want to talk to me at this point.. I mean, at least tell me what I did wrong!!

Fifth time: I miss you..

Sixth time: You know, the least you can do is give me the courtesy of telling me what is going on. Thats all I ask. If you dont want to talk to me, fine. Thats your choice, but pl-ease be a human being and reason with me. Then you can go on with your life without me in it if you so choose...

THEN, then I finally get a text from her.

Tutor: Hey. . . . I"m on campus now if you want to talk. . .
Me: (to myself) Are you KIDDING me?! After all that? Do I want to talk on campus? REALLY? Amateur. After the 40 texts I've been sending yes, it is quite obvious that I want to talk. Alas........ (To my text message) .... No, I'm not on campus now.
Tutor:Ok.

- and that was it!
Honest to god, I dont know where I went wrong, but a tiny part of me thinks that I might have had a slip of the tongue.. You know, halfway through happy hour, I fear that I might have told her that I didn't pass organic chemistry after all. I'd told her that I did... :( I know. That was terrible. But I told her that because I didnt want her to think that she didnt do a good job tutoring me. That girl spent so much of her time making sure I understood everything. She's a great tutor. I, apparently, am a shitty learner.

On that note. Time to hit the books.