ouch.

Im back home and I'm in pain. My legs are absolutely killing me, both my vastus medialis are on fire. I think I danced way too much on the first night - between that an all the walking we did, I'm surprised I can still hold my own weight. After I drop my friend off at the airport, I just want to come back here and go to sleep, take a bath, relax - anything that requires minimal movement. I've had quite the long weekend. We had fun though, despite the pain we are both in. :p

I was thinking of going to the lab today, but I'm not sure I can handle it. I really need to rest my legs. This isn't any kind of pain I've had before, it's a constant burning and I cant even sit on the john without holding something to help me lower myself. I feel like an old lady.

Anyways, while we were in Key West, I had horrible signal. I wasnt able to retrieve any emails on my phone, which worried me slightly because I was looking forward to hearing from that lady about the shadowing opportunity. But just to be sure she hadnt forgotten about me, I emailed her before I left and said:

Good morning,

Hope you had a great weekend! I just wanted to follow up in regard to the shadowing opportunity.

Thanks,


To which she replied:
Good Afternoon,

I hope you are doing well. They are asking me to specify shadow dates. Would it be 8/25 - 12/1/09 twice a week? Please advise.
Thank you,


In response to that I confirmed those dates but told her that I didnt know exactly which days and what times yet. I'll get back to her, I just have to check my schedule.


I start school on Monday. I'm petrified. No really, I am. For the past few years, finishing this degree has always been in the back of my mind, med school has always been in the back of my mind, and here I am, days away from the beginning of my journey. This is it. I'm just worried that I wont do as well as I'd like. But not because I'm going to be distracted with other things (clubs, sorority life - again, partying, beach etc...) I'm over that. I'm worried that I'm simply not capable of getting that A in orgo or at least passing calc this time. I mean, doesnt everyone have an academic threshold? I'm being negative. I'll stop.

Oh, before I went on vacation, I had my MCAT books stacked in my corner bookshelf, not glaring but not completely hidden either. Yes, I'm doing this under the radar but I'm not going to go out of my way to "hide the evidence." Dont ask dont tell. So anyway, my books were in the corner and when my friend came into my room I noticed that she'd eyed them several times but didnt say anything. I know her, she'd never say anything to me about it. I mean it's not like I left them out on purpose to flash them in her face, books are books and are meant to be on bookshelves. I guess it's not really a big deal at this point. For once though I just want someone to know that I have a goal and it feels good share it.



I had a dream last night. It was my first day in med school and the professor went to the whiteboard and wrote the word "perfusion" in large block letters. He then told us that we had 5 minutes to put together a mini oral lecture explaining that word. I remember feeling confident and excited. I went to the board, did my thing, and that was the end of that. Random, huh?
Perfusion though?