I wanted to kick my own ass today. I thought again about how on Earth I'll be able to balance volunteering with my school AND a job, I suddenly thought to myself: gee, i could have taken care of my volunteering while I was in NYC. I was practically not doing anything all afternoon for two years. It would have saved me from having to deal with it now. I say "deal with it" not in the sense that it is a burden and I dread it, but it's just that it will be a lot on my plate.
But then again, when i was in NYC I was certainly in a differnt mindset. I wasnt motivated, I wasn't as resourceful, and I sure as shit wasn't thinking about med school - I was too wrapped up in my Masters program and the crazy idea of being a best-selling author who lived up in the Catskills in a log cabin with more cats than Hemmingway. So I guess in the grand scheme of things, It's alright... I shouldnt beat myself up too badly.
A few days ago, I sent out about a dozen unsolicited emails to doctors locally and at the med school in regard to research opportunities. I think I already mentioned that. Anyways, so far I got one reply from a Dr in the Department of Neurology and one from a Dr in the Department of Urology. Options! Options! Woo!
Dr. Neuro told me to send him a resume as there are both volunteer research positions and paid ones (cool)starting september.
Dr. Uro said that if I'd like to meet with him to discuss various opportunities based on which level would be most appropriate academically and clinically, he's be happy to set up a time. I'll think about that over the weekend...
Living in the suburbs of Miami isnt a damn thing like living in NYC. You need a car. No exceptions. So, I was with my dad today looking for (my 4th, count it, 4th car) and he asked (in regard to how many months we should lease) if I am considering staying in Florida for "graduate school." Well, honestly I have considered the possibilty of a Florida school. Miami is just as good as a dead horse on a racetrak to me, but the rest of Florida I can deal with. So I told him that even though it is very premature to consider particular graduate programs, I was still considering Florida as an option.
What I was also thinking in my head was something like "yikes, what if i get accepted to a caribbean medical school?! I'm not going to base my career around the terms of a car lease!!!" I am hoping though that If I am forunate enough to get accepted, the terms of THAT will prevail over any other terms, car, relationship, job, or the like.
In order to be as succesful as possible during this journey, I need to remain focused, and not think about what is going to happen this time next year. One day at a time, one day at a time.
Speaking about days and time, today I didn't hear anything from that lady about the job at the research clinic. I have one more day, lets hope she is saving the best for last? Otherwise, it is back to square one.
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